On Mothers Day

With Mother's Day fast approaching, I wanted to take a moment and reflect on the past year of keeping this blog and what it has brought me. You see, last Mother's Day was when I really committed myself to blogging here. I was in need of a creative outlet, a way to preserve my memories, and a way to connect with others. 

I am so thankful that I picked up my camera and learned how to use it. I am so thankful that I've recorded some of my thoughts and some of our everyday antics. Because without these records, it is very hard for me to recollect any details of our lives. I don't know whether its because I gave up a portion of my brain cells to my kids when I grew them in my belly, or if its just another checkmark on my list of thyroid related symptoms. But the reality is, the past sevenish years are just a fuzzy blur to me. 

Fortunately, looking at these pictures bring something back. And what that something is, is not so much a memory, but a raw feeling. I can remember the feelings I had in these moments with my boys. And the more I look at them, the stronger the feelings grow. The more clear my connection to my boys become.

As a mother I work hard to stay in the moment with my kids. To not be distracted too much by media and housework. And so we work and play together. We make memories of the everyday things. If you ask me at the end of the day what we've done all day, sometimes I honestly do not know. But if I take pictures, there is a record. And I can look at them, and access those feeling, and build my memories through them. I can savor, in hindsight. 

Being a Mother to these boys is the most important job I will ever have. This Mother's Day, in addition to honoring my mom and all the other moms in my life, I'm taking time to go through all our old photos and videos. I'm taking time to go through my old blog posts, and refresh the look of this online journal of our lives. And in the process, honoring the journey that I am on. Savoring all the moments we've celebrated in our journey together so far. And looking forward to those yet to come.

Happy Mothers Day to you and yours. I hope you find some time to savor your journey as well.


Heather Jennings said...

Pretty mama and beautiful post.

Stacey said...

I love this. Beautiful pictures and post. The one of you smooshing Leo's face while snuggling him makes me super happy. xoxo